affirmations for the faint of heart

I am resilient, I am resourceful, I am worthy, 

they say.

Why yes, I am also battered. I am also nursing a bruise and the child inside me and her bruises, too.

I am tired, and angry, and scaling a mountain with frayed rope.

But I am resilient. I am resilient. I am resilient.

After all, I am both my father’s smallest child and my grandmother’s greatest wish. I am the lone woman in the field. I am witness to and victim of and perpetrator within.

I am climbing into the empty well. I am going hungry. I am holding my destroyer's hand and bargaining with God.

I am resourceful. I am a thief. I am worthy of what I stole.

One day, 

I 

will be the one holding the gun.